sentiments of sick person:(

Days had passed and I thought I was fine. Never did I imagine that I will be stuck in front of this computer when in fact I should be cramming with quizzes at school. I kept on telling myself that I’m ok – ayus lang- , I stayed believing that I can flip back to my normal routine, I kept denying - but the truth is : I am not, I Can’t.

It’s not good that I am sick; I feel like I am numb. It’s not good staying home all day long; I feel tired even more. It’s not good being deficient at school: I feel hopeless and distracted…It’s not good to suffer this way, it isn’t.

A day from now, I’ll celebrate my 18^th year of existence here on earth or should I say I will mourn over it. I’m still sick. This will be the worst birthday, I suppose. I really want to be in school at Thursday but I have to admit that I can’t. Maybe, this just calls for family celebration – if there is! Whether there is or none, I’m still thankful. Thankful In a way that GOD still permits me to perceive sunshine. Thankful in a way, that he still gives me time to thank people and apologize (thank you and sorry). Thankful in a way that he consents me to enjoy every bit of my life while it lasts - coz no one knows what will happen next L

I am not expecting any gift or celebration in my coming birthday, I just want all to be happy and everything else will be fine! I must be grateful enough that I already reached this age of maturity.

*live life to its fullest, I will...BEAR WITH ME!

* I miss you and will miss you guys.SEE YOU SOON.aja!

*neamItahwwonkouy,senilneewtebsithdaerohwesohtot

WISHLIST :)

My birthday is crawling nearer. Just days after now, I am now in LEGAL age. Date is just a birthday so there’s no need for me to celebrate that much, it’s better to celebrate each day of my existence here on earth. BUT, if you guys will grant one of my wish in this wish list, WHY NOT? Thank you very much! Wishes here aren’t expensive so it won’t drain your pockets.

1.) Cash – any amount will do ( kidding)

2.) Simple yellow shirt- ninoy shirt is preferable!

3.) PUP id lace – Kenneth is required..haha…[nainggit kc ako dun]

4.) Paracetamols and medicines – give it in advance so I can go to school at Thursday!adik.

5.) Starbucks treat- ahmm..illa?

6.) Simple cake and balloons – kahit ano!

7.) Birthday cards – para di na kayo gumastos!

8.) Havaianas – I like it much.

9.) MOVIE treat – COE iba namn, sawa na ako sa 16 pesos.lol

10.) Lrt stored value card – para lrt na lang ako lagi..

11.) Book – basta mababasa, ok na!

12.) Usb- sira yung akin, nakikisave lang kay illa.

13.) Personalized gift- basta may effort ok na talga!

14.) Hugs and greetings – basta sincere kayo.

15.) Passes sa CEA gate- para di na i-check temperature ko! Pede kaya yun?

16.) Java book – gusto ko na talgang matuto nyan.

17.) Pants – kahit yung sale lang sa divi. Haha.

18.) Kahit anong alam nio na ikasasaya ko. Ok ako dun!

*see?mababaw akong tao!hehe!

I'll be back..SOON!

It has been a bad day. I’ve felt that whole world on a scheme to make things difficult for me.

Horrible java coursework, nasty circuits’ exams, massive assignments made me so occupied last night. I’ve done with all this stuffs before going to school, well in a way that I’m so much prepared for this day’s battle. It is as if I fully geared myself – or so I thought-.

The main gate was closed in CEA and it’s so unusual for us. There’s this line that caught my eye at the gate side of the campus, and I wondered what is it for. BOOM, there is a Temperature check, I felt that my blood is running from nowhere. I am AFRAID; I am not feeling well this day. What if my temperature tolls high? How will I seize the exam? Will I fail to spot the very first lesson in statics? WTF, questions are spinning from my mind, my heart starts to beat fast. I insisted to set off with the line and now it’s my turn.

Quarantine personnel words were like thunder in my ears when I heard that I can’t enter the campus. This should not be happening, it must not be happening. I hurriedly went to school clinic to check if there’s a chance that I could pass the entry point. DAMN, they gave me 3-7 days suspension instead, simply because of this freaking 37.8 degree Celsius temperature that my body did sustain. They even prescribed me to capture paracetamol with the interval of 4 hours. I tried to look for positive vibes; fortunately I’m not alone with this. Illa – a great friend of mine – also trapped with the same situation.

Due to our dismay, we decided to go home. The situation didn’t sink in my mind and I’m still in the point of denial until I arrived home. I am sick, I admit. Sick because I compromised my health just for the fact that I have to accomplish all those messy school stuffs. I just have 3 hours of sleep, I have cough, runny nose and headache. Are these really swine flu symptoms? Yes they are: however just like any other seasonal flu these signs also cascade on it. There’s a finite line between Swine flu and a simple flu. I identify my body. I discern its limit. I know it’s not SWINE FLU [still acquiring positive energy]. I have to rest and take away all those works out of my senses. RELAX. UNWIND. SLEEP. – I guess will be the best remedy-.

*Sana makapasok ako by Thursday [my birthday]. I don’t want to spend my age of legality alone. To get well and be fully recovered will be the best gift for this special occasion.

-I wil mis you GUYS!

- I'll be back..SOON!

I FELT LIKE I BELONG!

Time passes by so swiftly. It seems like only yesterday when I emerged from the crowd of every freshmen students. I am coward and afraid that time. Faces, things, places were so unfamiliar for me, I tend to be terrified. But then fate had landed its wings again, I came to get pleasure from every bit of minute here in PUP. I battled against different circumstances for two years and I’m proud that I defeated them.

I am now a Junior-pup-Coe student! (cheers!)..

The real challenge has begun; it’s just the START – the beginning of sleepless nights, monstrous programs, electrifying circuits and so on. I need to be prepared and ready, Focus will now be the term – or so I thought- .

My first week in junior’s life was not that hard for me. It was indeed fun. Sets of new classmates and friends brought excitement in me. I can’t put into words how happy I am that I adjusted fast with this new environment. [thanks to lovely!]. I don't regret that i decided to take 3-3 schedule instead of 4.

Luckies and others welcomed me in open arms, there’s really no DULL moment. Super thank you for that! We even watched movie after Thursday boring class [16 pesos lang kasi.lol]. We did a lot of talks and laughter. We copied each other's work,. We symphatized over their confiscated ID's so .... I felt like I belong.

group pic while waiting for the 7 pm movie to start..

Within this circle of friends, there’s this favorite of mine. With lovely as exception, I found this very comfy feeling with illa – my seat-online-pagkain-mate. It is as if we’ve known each other for a long time. We’ve shared a lot of secrets (ayeeee) and heartbreaks already,not minding that we just bonded for only a week. Words aren’t enough to describe how thankful I am that I found companion with her!

*i'm looking forward to a greater bond with you guys!>.

the real definition of friendship will forever live in COE 3-3!

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Not in a mood :(

* i can't put my ideas into words this daY!...

i'm so bothered, don't know why!

WASTED CONVERSATION!

*Click the picture to ZOOM!

LOOK figure OUT how this FEEBIE attempted to ruin my day!.

She/ He (not sure?) hacked my cousin’s ym.

*BE CAREFUL : baka mabaliw kayo sa mga ENGLISH nya, orayt? BE PREPARED!

 

SUDDENLY WE BECAME CLOSE! :)

Behind a pretty face is a pain that Surfaces! (naks naman)

Life is tough. Life isn’t easy. Life is full of hurdles that if we’re able to bound over it we’ll come across its finish line.

One, two, or three times? I don’t know how many times we’d been to La Union -my mother’s place-. I can’t figure out the exact number, but one thing is for sure it is exceptionally SELDOM.  Due to remote distance as I say, we never had a chance to get along with my relatives or with my cousins to be exact. How I wish we were close as we were with my father’s side [just to be fair.lol].

Until then…

Fate brought ate nene –one of my cousins- (cris as known by josh and other acquainted friends) to us. She and my auntie had gone out of their town to visit my dying uncle. It’s not a wish granted on the first time. We both felt uncomfy on the day she arrived home ( sabi ko nga kasi di talaga kami close). Time shifted fast, I didn’t notice that we already did exchange jokes and laugh over it. We went across places. We’ve seen each other cry.  We did share secrets and the alike. We became SUPER CLOSE. (kalog kasi maxado)!

How ironic it is, the fate that brought ate nene to ours will be the same reason why we had to separate lives.

My neighbor who unfortunately would go audition as ENTERTAINER bumped my mother’s way out of our home.

Talk. Talk. Talk.

We’re pretty much aware that she had this gift of singing and so mama convinced her to audition also. Unfortunately, the work is based in Korea and she had to leave the country if ever she would get in. She doesn’t want to leave, I know. If she won’t, Chances are: her family will be drowned with the crimped waves of poverty or Scarcity will beat them.

And there she left. ..

It has been 7 months (I guess?) since we parted ways and it’s been a long time. She earns her salary monthly, half of it goes to her mother and the half goes for savings. But the adventure of seeking wealth doesn’t stop there. Her road to success went smooth when she met JOSH – customer who fortunately happened to be the love of her life in KOREA-. SHE loves him as much as JOSH does, so much that she sacrificed all of her supposed-to-be-income she’ll earn by transferring to other club. CLUB? Some would think that it’s a work of flesh, but it isn’t. She’s just an ENTERTAINER, so better yet don’t judge!

Josh, so you know now what she did. So don’t try to hurt nor deceive her. You know your worth, you should know your part too!

But then, there it goes, FATE is playing again. LIFE SUCKS SOMETIMES!

The road now is getting rough. Her father got hospitalized for almost a week and her salary isn’t enough to support the medications. I won’t mention what happened but to tell you guys, it is not GOOD!

 She has to make a decision between love and money and let’s keep it by herself.  

 

*Just an advice:

FOLLOW YOUR HEART AND INSTINCTS!

Hope it helps.

 

MOVE on, KEEP GOING~:)

This was the day I thought I could have a good-so-fine sleep after spending three consecutive busy nights with my phone and PC but then I was wrong. Time really moved fast today, so fast that I didn’t anticipate that I am 30 minutes late for my 7:00 Pm class with Peter Yang. I went to the hospital to visit CHINEE – a high school friend of mine – because she had a broken ankle Operation yesterday, but this is not what I’ll blog today [still waiting for the pictures to be uploaded].

I received a text message from a PUP friend in which if you’ll go detail by detail you’ll see how ANGRY he was because of his Gf’s BETRAYAL. He refused to tell me anything maybe because it still hurts? – And that’s kept me hanging.  I easily Jump to the conclusion that his GF flirted, sexed, or whatsoever annoying action word with someone. Maybe I’m so so over-reacting for this but WTH, its super abnormal for a girl to do that but if guys did the same thing, it is accepted. It’s just INNATE.  

Why do boyfriends and girlfriends, lie to each other? Is this TRUE LOVE after all?

Our romantic relationships are seldom what they seem. We all want a relationship that is built on openness, intimacy, and trust, but the truth is, our relationships do not always work that way. More often than not, our intimate relationships involve secrecy and deceit. In fact, if you want to look for deception and betrayal in your own life, the best place to start is close to home. Boyfriends and girlfriends, often lie about their true feelings for each other, the feelings they have for others, and their level of commitment. Indeed, it is safe to say that we people save their biggest and most serious lies for those they love. Lying to a romantic partner helps us deal with the constraints that our intimate relationships impose. Quite frankly, deceiving a romantic partner turns out to be the most efficient and effective way of maintaining the rewards we get from our romantic relationships while pursuing extra-relational goals and activities behind a partner’s back.

In Mere say, DECEPTION and BETRAYAL are just the norms of the society but these shouldn’t be practiced all the time only if they’re for the betterment of the relationship. We have to be prepared for this cause we PEOPLE are FRAGILE that’s why when we got hurt and deceived we TEND to be BITTER! But that’s not what life is after all. We have to go on, move on, and keep on going because until then we will realize how happy it is to be in love!

I REGAINED my focus :)

I so so hate myself for being envy to those people whose blogs were really attention-catchers; I don’t know why I feel that word every time I would go on reading their works. The words and metaphorical statements they used made me feel that I am nowhere for this nature. I am in the point that I realized how poor-writer I am and must have to blame no one but myself for this. Honesty such, I always feel DUMB and INSECURE. Multiply, BlogSpot, Word press were frustrations for me. Blogging isn’t my forte neither I can say Blog doesn’t like me at all.

I am no fan of blogging but I’ll try to compensate my weaknesses from this day forward. Gone is the time that I’ll pity myself just because of this; gone is the time that I will feel INSECURE. The definition of a fighting spirit will forever live here.

 I am in extreme monotony for almost two weeks or three and I am trying to conceptualize something that would cover up all of the supposed-to-be-blog- that were wasted because  of this laziness in me. It has been month since I updated my entry and so I think I have to renew it now! Nights and days passed and I felt pre-occupied that’s why I decided to go back teaching again. Regardless of salary, this work established a lot to me. It’s not easy in a way, but I have to do this simply because of money, boredom treatment, and student’s beneficial for the doubt (ano daw?). well , For at least 4 hours, I know I did something great.

I am running out of my thoughts again, so for now I have to take a rest. GUDNYT!

*Blog site RENEWED!